The article comments on the experiences of the former anti-communist activists conditioned by their engagement in the contemporary memory politics in Poland. Theoretically, the article presents the notion of memory understood as a social emobodied practice performed in specific material surroundings in a given historical time, structured by larger institutional forms and actions. Ethnographically, the author reflects on the efficacy of the contemporary historical policy for her informants whose sense of closure of the problematic past seems fragile. Her argument is that the complexity of the past violent experiences as lived by her informants cannot be contained in the conventionalized, bureacratized and rigid forms of contemporary memory projects.